But some aren't as suited for it. [He would never let Fuuka fight, unless it was absolutely necessary.]
Red. It's...odd. [ There's a hint of a genuine emotion there, something Makoto doesn't show too often. He's unsure of why he's on red, and he hasn't yet had the chance to talk to Mitsuru about it.]
[Shady and secretive? Shit... why wasn't he on Red?! He was a hundred parts shady and a hundred parts secretive. (He also "took out the trash," so so speak, much like what Red does more often than not.)]
[Interesting. A shady, secretive team wasn't well received. What in the world could their primary function be, he wonders, within the groups of teams?]
[Makoto unknowingly struck a small cord in Ciel with that statement, but the other boy isn't wrong. People do fear death. They don't know what happens after, thus they fear the ending of their lives.
Ciel already knows, in a way, the answer to what happens after. That is why he fears death.
He knows what's going to happen to him.] Are you implying Reds bring death?
There's no reason to. [ If the question had been posed a few months earlier, his answer would have been slightly different. Makoto understood, at least a little bit, why others were scared of dying.
Aren't you afraid of not existing anymore? [The question doesn't sound accusatory or even fearful.] What if you haven't accomplished what you set out to do yet?
[Makoto's silent, considering his reply more than he normally would. He knew that few (if any?) people could understand how he felt, and he also knew that his views were difficult for others to accept.
But Ciel isn't Yukari, and so he'll make one last attempt.]
It's not about contentment.
Death can't scare me. [Consciously, his hand wanders to his Evoker. His lack of fear meant that he could use it better than others, even those who were strong-willed like Akihiko. ]
[When Makoto reaches for the Evoker, Ciel understands a little better. He remembers what Makoto had done on Selena to summon the Persona. A gun pointed at the head and a trigger pulled is quite the symbolism. Did Makoto have to conquer that fear to be able to use the gun?
Ciel has had to do the same... slightly. He's looked death in the face, too. But death still scares him, though for a different reason. It isn't to say he is afraid of the act of dying. He is afraid of Sebastian. And death means Sebastian gets what Sebastian wants.]
The thing you summoned before... Can you not summon it if you're afraid?
I've never been. [Perhaps he had fear when he was younger, before his parents had died in the "accident." But as far as he could remember, this was how he had always been.]
I didn't lead until Kirijo asked me to. [In a way, he has.] I'll do whatever is asked of me.
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Red. It's...odd. [ There's a hint of a genuine emotion there, something Makoto doesn't show too often. He's unsure of why he's on red, and he hasn't yet had the chance to talk to Mitsuru about it.]
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Why is it odd? What do you think Red does?
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You've been told. Do you believe it?
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There's animosity towards red, both the team and our leader. [ In other words, he had yet to see much for himself, barring the gag orders.]
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People fear what they don't understand.
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Ciel already knows, in a way, the answer to what happens after. That is why he fears death.
He knows what's going to happen to him.] Are you implying Reds bring death?
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But it's the root of most fears.
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Why not?
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But he himself, had no qualms about it.]
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Aren't you afraid of not existing anymore? [The question doesn't sound accusatory or even fearful.] What if you haven't accomplished what you set out to do yet?
What if you haven't accomplished anything at all?
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There's a difference between trying and giving up. [ He would do what he could, always.]
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Be afraid to die so that you can fight harder to live.
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But Ciel isn't Yukari, and so he'll make one last attempt.]
It's not about contentment.
Death can't scare me. [Consciously, his hand wanders to his Evoker. His lack of fear meant that he could use it better than others, even those who were strong-willed like Akihiko. ]
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Ciel has had to do the same... slightly. He's looked death in the face, too. But death still scares him, though for a different reason. It isn't to say he is afraid of the act of dying. He is afraid of Sebastian. And death means Sebastian gets what Sebastian wants.]
The thing you summoned before... Can you not summon it if you're afraid?
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But you can still be afraid. [ Yukari after all, often struggled with it.
Makoto is just an anomaly, for multiple reasons.]
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He had been afraid when he summoned Sebastian for the first time.] But you're not.
Have you realized why you're a Red yet? [It's actually less a question and more a hint.]
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I didn't lead until Kirijo asked me to. [In a way, he has.] I'll do whatever is asked of me.
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It's admirable. Not many people can do that. I think that's why you're Red.
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That makes sense.
No one's guessed my team correctly, yet. [Which feeds his curiosity on the matter.]
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Duh, Makoto, gosh.] Try to keep it that way, if you can. [Worst best advice.]
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